she found the safe

"Contrary to what the cynics say, distance is not for the fearful, it is for the bold. It's for those who are willing to spend a lot of time alone in exchange for a little time with the one they love. It's for those knowing a good thing when they see it, even if they don't see it nearly enough "

connecticut wins.



florida

pros: 

• my sister is back from hawaii for a year, so id be able to spend time with her
• my cna liscense will be valid, so i could hopefully get a job back within that area.
• the rest of my family is there (parents, siblings, nephews and extended family)
• my best friends
• id kind of have a social life

cons:

• i might not be able to find a job for a couple of months putting me back into debt
• id be living with my parents again and currently there are 6 people in the house, which will drive me crazy
• id be buying my own food, hygeine products and paying $200 for rent
• dramaaaaaaa

connecticut:

pros:

• i already have a job
• i do have a sister and her family here, plus my grandparents are here 1/2 the year
• i have a few  friends from work.
• id have a little extra money saved up to make a trip back to florida when needed and my sister said she'd fly up here to hang out for a week before she leaves for hawaii again
• id only be living with my sister, her husband and my nephew for free and in return i just have to babysit my nephew 2 days a week from 8-5
• id be able to save more/do more things because, i wont be paying for rent, food, etc.

cons:

• in january i wont be getting a whole lot of hours at work, but i could possibly find a new job or get a second job to make up for this.  (so this only sort of counts.)
• my cna liscense isnt valid and cant be transfered for use.
• no real social life.
• my bffs arent here. 

i think connecticut kind of outweighs florida in ways that it would be better for my future but florida would be a hell of alot more fun.

any suggestions/feedback?

what ive been up to lately:

-babysitting blake, which has led me to believe that i could never be a stay at home mom.  thank god for daycare.
-sucking at sleeping.
-watching way too many music videos on youtube.
-spending my little free time on theknot.com when im not even close to being engadged or being in a relationship.
-boy hopping.
-obsessing about my weight.



its good times.

( more )

so im already thinking ahead to my 21st birthday, which mind you isnt until february. 

i dont even have any friends to throw a party wtih and the friends i do have dont like eachother.

im so fucking lame it kills me sometimes. 

connecticut: 5
me:  1

lonely, lonely, lonely.

its a almost 11pm on a friday night and im by myself watching ashley paige: bikini or bust.

my life stinks right now.

i have so much to give.

why cant i meet someone who can offer me just as much?

moving to connecticut on the 14th of july.

see ya bitches!

fucked over again.
i hate boys sometimes but i knew this was coming so its not as shocking as i thought it was.  it sucked because, i liked him a lot too.   good thing i had more boys lined up just in case this happened.